Fat

Fat.
I have always been fat.
Fat doesnt mean you are too heavy or wheigh more than you should. It is a way of being, a lifestyle, a sin. It isnt just measured by scales and numbers. It is feeling your thighs stick together during a hot summer. Its not raising you hand in class because your arm jiggles. Its wearing a sweatshirt at a pool party and low-fat yogurt.
i have always been fat.
living fat is so much more than just being fat.
it means you are
stupid for believeing that "curvy" was a compliment.
vain for spending hours in the mirror and gym.
mean to those you are jealous of.
self depreciating for hateing fat.
careless for eating so many M&Ms.
empty (stomache) when dieting.
a liar, for not believing the scale.
and exsquitely beautiful in moments when you truely dont care.